~ Starlitez Galaxy ~

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

To be honest, I don't think I had thoroughly enjoyed this holiday thus far.
There aren't many things to look forward to.
There aren't many fruitful things that I have accomplished.
It's the feeling of being at the suspense of others,
suddenly making me feel so inferior and small.

I also realised how unpleasant a person I can be.
But I guess no amount of 'sorry's can turn back time.
I'm like putting the blame on myself now...
one can never know how 自责 I am now.

The sudden rush of unhappiness was indeed overwhelming this past week.
It seemed extremely uncontrollable,
so much so that I myself was rather taken aback by it.
Even my mum realised it last Sunday,
but she left me alone, not talking to me
until dinner time when she finally spoke.
Nonetheless, I just couldn't tell her anything...
It's not that I don't want but I don't know how.
Everyone kept asking me why?
I also wondered why...
It kinda shocked me to have experienced such emotions.
Totally.

~~mngtalk~~ ^___~ _{3:29 PM}